This Star Won't Go Out

If you ever have a spare few hours of your life and you're looking for something to use your time wisely, please read the book "This Star Won't Go Out"

This book is one of the most touching stories I have ever read and I wish I had met this lovely girl named, Esther.

Esther Grace Earl.
She was born August 3rd, 1994 and left this world, suddenly and peacefully on August 25th, 2010. She was 16 when she passed.



I would not class this book as a Biography.
More like a story.
Not a love story. Not a story of loss.
But a story of the human struggle and the will to be alive.
A story of the test of faith and happiness.
I will hold Esther Earl's story forever close to my heart for as long as I am able.


I will not spoil anything of this book- nor will I make the emotional post I was going to. I spent a lot of time pondering on how I was going to allow myself to respond. But I've come to accept that I'm going to see the anger that John Green-a beloved author and not really surprisingly a friend of Esther's-did; with anger and frustration.

The story of Esther is touching, special and to be treasured.
The story of Esther also a story and proof that the world is cruel to sweet things. If the world finds a ray of sunshine, it will crush it mercilessly. I am not referring to Esther Earl as being crushed, nor did the rare ray of sunshine that she shone so brightly become crushed either. Even in her last days, she was said to be extremely lively and happy.

 Her story and her life lives on in the hearts of people who knew her, her mother, Lori Earl, her father, Wayne Earl and her siblings, Evangeline Earl, Abraham Earl, Abby Earl and Graham Earl.

John Green, being a friend of her, shortly after posted the book titled "The Fault in Our Stars" which I believe, he wrote to honour Esther. He did not write it based on Esther and he (rightfully) refuses to talk about Esther in the context of "The Fault in Our Stars", he denies any connection, apart from him wanting Esther to read his book.


Below is her last, ever video that is on her YouTube channel. (Cookie4Monster4), you can still see, that even so close to her returning home to the God she believed in, she was joyful. In this video, she tours us around her house and still bounces around, you see her brother, Graham and her. There is also another video on her channel called "Just Feelings" that I urge you to watch too.

Please remember this is not a fictional story, this actually happened. 
Esther Earl is just as real as her death was. And I can't possibly imagine the pain that her family and her friend-John Green goes through with every memory they have of her. Do they smile? Do they cry? Do they sit in a corner and reflect on her life? Only they know and I hope they got the privacy that they deserved to come to terms with their grief of losing such a precious young woman.